Today is my last day of being the age 42. Tomorrow I am 43. There really isn't a difference between 42 and 43. But every year at this time, the clock turns over to a new year. I am a new age. And what do I have to show for it? Well usually not much. And usually definitely not much in the term of weight loss. Age 43 is the year that we turn that baby around. I actually started at age 42.
December 2019 - I go for my annual with my OB. My OB is this brutally honest sweet Jewish lady that will tell you how it is. And she did. And the gist of her message to me was.. sometimes people just can't lose weight. Give yourself 6 months to a year and if you can't lose weight, I have a weight loss surgeon that I can recommend to you. But you are approaching morbidly obese and you need to change that or you will start having major health problems. Wide-eyed with a HECK NO attitude about surgery (not that there is anything wrong with it..it's just not for me), I started exercise. I started eating right. Calories in Calories out.. It worked for me.
Looking at the below photos (taken in December 2019) are hard. And sharing them is hard. I don't know why because most people see me like this all the time. But I don't.. Not looking in the mirror.. not looking at photos.. it's almost easy to forget sometimes just how obese I am. That's right.. I am obese. And its AWFUL. And I am unhealthy. And I hate the way I look. And I hate the mirror.
But you know what I love.. changing that. I took a break for Covid season..maintained my weight but didn't lose any and now I am back at it. Ready to exercise and ready to drop the pounds. Putting in the time. Putting in the discipline. Getting it done.
I have lost 15 lbs since the below pictures were taken. Not really enough for any sort of progress photos or to see much of a difference except I am wearing shorts that I didn't wear last summer so I guess that's something. But I don't care. I don't need scale victories every week. I don't need non scale victories. The weight will come off. Maybe not every week. But it's coming off. Patience is my friend. This is gonna take years. But if years is what it takes. I am ready and I am taking you with me. Every once in awhile you will see me post about my progress.
Here is a recent June 2020 picture. Again, you can't really see 15 lbs difference but I still wanted to throw this picture in there as a progress photo. One of the things that I desire but I don't know if I will get out of weight loss is I WANT MY EYES BACK. I have seen face editions of before and after photos and in the after pictures, their eyes are much more open. This is a petty thing and maybe I will always have squinty eyes but a girl can hope right? :)
Also look at my handsome husband.. he is almost at goal weight. He started exercising with me before Covid and even continued during Covid (me not so much). I am super proud of his progress.
Calories In Calories Out using My Fitness Pal worked for me but now I am mixing it up a little and trying out the Trim Healthy Mama program. Besides general overall health goals, I am also hoping to get off ALL meds that I am currently on for high cholesterol and pre-diabetes.
See you in 3 months blog followers!
